Tuesday, April 13, 2010

Pity Party

I apologize now for the pity party post...I'm feeling a bit frustrated and I need to let it out.

Ok, so you may or may not know that I'm a biker. I am now the proud owner of a 2008 Harley Nightster. I bought it about two weeks ago. I've never ridden it because...well, I'm pregnant and can't ride. I sold my old motorcycle about two years ago so I could get pregnant for G and K...and here I am still not able to ride cause I'm pregnant for T and M.

As if that weren't depressing enough I find out that my favorite artist is once again coming into town and I can't go see her. Why? Because I'm pregnant! To add insult to injury I found out I can get seats center stage, 29th row...but I can't go. A "friend" of mine (and I put that in quotes because we only seem to be friends when she wants something) got to go to the Country Music Awards because of an essay her daughter wrote about her. She got to go as a guest of Alan Jackson's. Well, as she was backstage, she met Reba, my favorite artist, and had her picture taken with her. Now whenever she talks to me she brags about she got to meet her and how wonderful she is...wow, thanks for adding insult injury.

I just feel like crying right now. I've done so much for other people and sometimes I wonder why I've given up some of my loves in life so that others can have what they want.


Holly said...

i don't understand. why can't you go?

i'm sorry you're so frustrated. i know how you feel. (well not exactly but close)hope it gets better soon!!!

i won't say just think of the happiness you're causing the IP because sometimes it's nice to just have your frustrations recognized and not dismissed. it is a lot that you give up and i think it sometimes goes against human nature to give up so much of what we want/need for someone else. it's definitely harder than being pregnant with your own child... you don't have that big ending of a child in your arms to look forward to. sometimes it helps me to go do a little something extra for myself to make me feel a little pampered... something i might usually deny myself... new make up, or a pedicure or a really good book. or a dinner that i've been craving no matter how expensive it is. i do find that little indulgences help to make the big ones we miss out on a little easier to bear.

*big hug*

Surrogate Mom said...

I can't go because the baby has ears now and can hear. The noise might effect the baby's hearing. It's the same reason I can't go to the shooting range anymore.

Thanks hon! I know I shouldn't complain because my IPs are going to have a wonderful little one...I'm just frustrated because I feel like I'm the only giving up anything.

I'll be fine in a day or two...and you're right, maybe I should go have a pedicure or something.