Sunday, January 3, 2010

I can do it!

Yep, that's what I keep telling myself...

I've learned over the past 6-8 months that I feel better and have more energy when I exercise...even if it's just going for a brisk walk, or jogging up and down the stairs...anything to get my blood flowing and some sweat a movin'. Well, because of the restrictions I'm under, I can't do any of that. I can't lift over 10 pounds, which means I can't even lift weights to give myself a workout. So for the past almost two months, I've been living a sedentary lifestyle. That, in combination with the meds, and I've gained 14 pounds already! (I feel huge!)

I went to Sam's Club today with the family, and we walked around long enough to get all of our shopping done for two weeks and then we stopped to pick up food on our way home. I was and am exhausted. I want to lay down and take a nap! This is not like me at all! I've had so much energy and been doing so well at working out. Now I'm a bum...or at least that's how I feel.

Speaking of bums...

Mine hurts! The past three shots I've given myself haven't gone so well. I don't know what the deal is. I can get the needle in without any issue, but about halfway through the shot, my muscle decides it can't handle anymore progesterone. The muscle starts to burn, and then my hip starts to ache (literally the hip, like near the bone, not the muscle), and last but not least, it starts to ache down my leg. I have two huge bruises, one on each butt cheek. I also have two huge knots that no matter how long I sit on the heating pad and massage them they won't go down. (Again, one on each butt cheek.) My lower back started to ache last night but I think that's because I have to twist into some weird positions in order to get the needle in. If Kenny's hands didn't shake when he gets near the needle, I'd have him start doing the injections. Oh well, this part is almost over!

I've had to work out new solutions for the morning sickness. Just when I think something works, like eating 8+ small meals a day, the little bean decides to throw me a curve ball and make me sick just after I've eaten something...or in the middle of the night. That's been the big thing lately. Waking up 15 times a night to vomit. I've started keeping pretzels and bottled water next to the bed. When I wake up feeling a bit nauseous, I take a swig of water, and eat a few pretzels...wait about three minutes and repeat. That usually works. A couple of nights ago I thought for sure I had the flu or something cause no matter what I did, I couldn't leave the bathroom I was so sick. I find it hilarious though when I think about it. Most women would be just finding out their pregnant. If I were in their shoes, I'd be calling the doctor and asking for the symptoms of swine flu, or setting up an appointment because I had the flu. That would be the time the doctor tells me I don't have the flu and to rest...and after another week when it didn't go away and I hadn't started my period, that would be when I realized that I was pregnant. Luckily I can skip all the extra steps and go straight to the "This kid hates me!" whining.

Either way, I'll deal with the nausea, and the exhaustion and the wishing I could soak in a tub, or work out (or *whispers* have s-e-x) and I'll do it all knowing that someday Joseph (the little bean) will be in his mother's arms where he belongs because of it.

2 comments:

Holly said...

i applaud you for giving yourself your shots!! i couldn't! I couldn't even give myself the lupron shot in the stomach. I am terrified of shots. I have my boyfriend (who used to do piercings) give me mine. I have had a lot of issues too. I have knots all in the muscles now. I ice before hand so it doesn't hurt the skin but i feel it in the muscle. it starts to ache really bad while the meds are going in. I talked to my nurse. She said that i should ice before and use a heat pack after to help the oil break up and to help with the knots. She said i should try to use a heat pack for about an hour every night and it may take a while but it would start to help the aching and the knots. Hope this helps some!

Surrogate Mom said...

Yeah, I ice before, heat the oil before I inject, and then sit on the heating pad for at least an hour or two afterward. Hubby massages the area right after the shot, or uses the electric back massage thing to try to get the muscle to relax some. It's just one of the joys of surrogacy. Last time the shots were way worse! I had horrible knots and couldn't sit. I actually wonder if these knots are the same as the last ones but I was just more prepared for what they would feel like...